Intense

Intense.  Intense is the word I keep using to describe Surgery Deux, from the moment I came out of surgery to today, everything has felt louder, brighter and harder.  

Surgery was two weeks ago on August 7th and I get waves of sadness and dissatisfaction with my progress.  I still need a lot of help / supervision.  But then I have some moments where I'm astonished at what I am / was able to do.  

The surgery, a T2 - T3 fusion and T8 - T11 laminectomy went well.  My medical team is pleased and my recovery is on track, and when I tell them how much more everything is they reply "that's because you had a lot more surgery."  I have no regrets about my medical team and HSS, they are the best.

I have yet to see my back but B checks it out every day and is amazed that they opened me up from my neck to my lower back and always encourages me for where I am from what they have done.  B is amazing, he finds the rainbows in my clouds, makes me laugh, and does not hesitate to help with the hard and gross stuff.  M is amazing as well, when we got home from the hospital she bounced all over the house with happiness and she is quick to help fetch things, keep me hydrated and sit close during a movie.  We got home a day before she started the new school year and she started with the same focus and curiosity as always.

There's a lot more to share, which I will in time, but for now - I did it and it's hard.